Life Begins at the End of your Comfort Zone
So I quit my job today. I couldn’t think of anything worse than going back after my maternity ended, so there it is. I’m unemployed…..which strangely is more of a relief than it is scary.
After a nightmare two years, hardly able to keep my eyes open to feed and put my daughter to sleep, falling asleep the minute she was, only to wake up at 345am and go again. Needs must I suppose. Thinking back, I must have been crazy, the money was good and for everyone else in my industry, the hours were good….but were they. 12 hours at least, on your feet, run ragged for five days of the week when you’ve got a baby, then a toddler. Hindsight is a beautiful thing, I shouldn’t have done it, I regret it fully. My problem was, we needed the money and it was well paid, well probably not by the hour or for your soul, but monthly it was good and necessary. My other problem was that before I had children I used to work there and loved it, but children change your life, I started to hate and resent it. I was right to resent it, I’m right to leave. I have so much regret of the last two years and having hardly any energy to bring up my daughter, I won’t do it again.
It’s a terrifying thing suddenly knowing that you can’t go back to your job and that there’s nothing to fall back on, especially when you very soon will need the money. So in the process of all of this stress and fear I decide to focus on a career that I actually want to do. Happiness is the goal – not money. This is my whole new year and new life goal. Thoughts swirling around at the moment and I have almost decided on something amazing, but not quite; although until then I have to get a job.
I’ve not had an interview for a job in over 7 years. Every time I’ve been promoted it’s just happened. In starting to apply for jobs I’ve found that I have no idea how I’d act in an interview. I’m a terrible first impression. I talk too much, I start to “waffle” my husband’s word and I generally just can’t help myself. So here in the land of no money and jobs I live, but at the same time as that, I’m with my children. And then even when the day comes that I actually interview well and get a job, it will be a job that allows me to spend time with my children so that they grow up with me in their life.
Also a career that perhaps has advancement for people working part time, is that even possible? I know that working mothers need to fight for equal opportunities, but actually you should be able to have it all. What’s a career if it can’t give back to you what you put in. A career is meant to give you satisfaction and happiness as well as paying your salary or you won’t get the most out of your employees. You should know as well, that females working part time with children will most likely be your best employees, your most trustworthy and your hardest workers if only they got the chance and knew there was progression in their jobs for the best person. I think we’re a few decades away from this in most industries, but we can only try.
So on the pursuit of happiness of 2018, you’ve got to put up with a few shit years to get something that you really want. Put up with no career in order to get the career that you want and the life you want with your family. It’s all a step in the right direction.